Spring is around the corner and I finally feel like I’m coming out of my fog. The last four months have been a bit of a haze, I have been in survival mode functioning on autopilot. Going through the day to day motions rather than participating with and engaging in life, avoiding myself. The fog has lifted, a new normal has been restored in our family and for the first time in about 4 months I’ve managed to get onto my meditation mat, reminding myself of the deep sense of peace that is available to me at all times. Generally I am quite self aware and I know the things I need to do that bring me peace of mind and presence but when shit hits the fan I find it quite difficult to maintain these practices, it is of course when I need them most.
Recently I read The Choice by Dr Edith Eger in it she shares:
“We are overwhelmed by loss and think we will never recover a sense of self and purpose, that we will never mend. But despite – and really because of – the struggles and tragedies in our lives, each of us has the capacity to gain the perspective that transforms us from victim to thriver. We can choose to take responsibility for our hardships and healing. We can choose to be free.”
“Our painful experiences aren’t a liability – they’re a gift. They give us perspective and meaning, an opportunity to find our unique purpose and our strength.”
And so this springtime I am choosing to commit to myself, to clear the fog, to let go of things that are no longer working for me and to make the time to connect with the inner peace and strength that lies deep within my soul.
“Spring is a time to find where you are, who you are and move toward where you are going.” Penelope Trunk