Thank you for taking the time to read my story. I believe we all have a story, it shapes and molds us into who we are meant to be. Our stories have happy times, sad times and challenging times. Sometimes we can get stuck in our story, when this happens there is a tendency to keep repeating negative patterns – have you ever had the thoughts of “why does this keep happening?” or “are you kidding me, not again?” trust me I’ve had them all too often. It’s difficult not to become attached to our stories because they make us who we are. However, I think that life uses our stories to strengthen us and help us grow and develop. If we can use our challenges for growth and not become too caught up in the drama of them, then we can become aware of the negative patterns and hopefully change them into positives. BodyTalk helps us to let go of the attachment to our stories. It helps us to move forward when we are feeling stuck, it helps us to release emotions which can be difficult to express, it helps to rewire our brains and form new belief systems that will serve us rather than limit us, it helps us to become more aware of who we are meant to be.
My mum was diagnosed with a terminal illness in my early twenties, for 8 years I watched helplessly as she derailed and slipped into a world of her own. Eventually she could not talk or do anything for herself. The roles reversed, the love deepened. I became like a mother to my mother. Grief became an every day emotion as I was losing her day by day.
BodyTalk seemed to find me at a time I needed it most. All thanks goes to my dear friend Karen who gave me my first session in mid 2009. It was always difficult for me to express myself and when my mum was ill I would often have so much emotion in me that I did not even know where to begin. BodyTalk helped me to deal with all of my unexpressed emotion, all the grief, the turmoil, hurt, anger and sadness. I loved my sessions and would come out feeling like a big weight had been lifted off my shoulders and that I could cope again. It only took a few BodyTalk sessions to realize that this is what I wanted to do! So I did the course in 2010 and opened my practice in mid 2011. It has been an amazing journey of self discovery, one that has been both rewarding and humbling. I have met so many wonderful people through my practice and it has opened me up to the beauty and wonder of life.
Eventually on 21 August 2013 mum slipped away very peacefully and finally her struggle was over. The grief became all consuming and it took a lot of time and effort to work through it. I don’t think that grief ever leaves you, perhaps it just softens and becomes part of you. Eventually you start to feel lighter and the waves of grief become further apart. Now 6 years later not a day goes by without thinking of my darling mum but I have peace in my heart.
One thing I know for sure is that EVERYONE is fighting some kind of battle that we know nothing about, so try not to judge others until you have walked in their shoes.
‘My mission in life is merely not to survive, but to thrive, & to do so with some passion, some compassion, some humor & some style.” Maya Angelou